Preparations for a New Beginning

CHAPTER 82

With the time for his departure nearing, Yeshua teaches Miriam additional essentials about the mysteries and powers of Celestine Light. At Miriam's request he also explains why he must die the ignoble death that he does. -Yeshua talks to his Apostles about his crucifixion and resurrection and why things will be as they are. He also tells them about Miriam's transition to the Angel of the Covenant and endows each of them with new gifts of power with special blessings for specific callings that are unique to each. He lastly gives each a rare and beautiful gemstone of power to aid them in their missions.

  1 During the next moon Yeshua spent almost all of his time with his family. He held no public meetings, and met with his Apostles and went among the gathered Children of Light only on the Sabbath.

  2 Many hours each day he would walk alone with Miriam teaching her the deeper mysteries of Celestine Light and on several occasions they spent the night alone in the hills above Capernaum and sometimes two or three.

  3 As the time of the new moon began, Yeshua spoke to Miriam upon the mountain, saying, “Your knowledge is now vast. No other person on Earth shall ever know all that you know about the mysteries and powers of Celestine Light.  This knowledge is entrusted to you as the Angel of the Covenant that you may ever be the shield of protection to the Children of Light and the well of knowledge for all who seek it in humility and the selflessness of service.”

  4 Miriam put her arms around Yeshua's waist and looked up into his eyes with love and said unto him tenderly, “Beloved, I am thankful beyond words for all that you have taught me every day we have been together. And I will serve as Elohim desires.

  5 I have listened dutifully, almost without speaking, for this moon as you have blessed me with knowledge beyond even that of the greatest prophets.

  6 As we prepare to go down now that you may speak with the Apostles and begin your fateful steps toward Jerusalem, I must ask of you a few questions. Hard they may seem in nature, but it is not with criticism that I ask them, but merely seeking a complete clarity of understanding that I may better serve our divine Father and Mother as you have shown unto me.

  7 I know you are aware of my questions before they ever are uttered from my lips and that you can answer my unspoken questions in words in my mind, but please allow me to say them lest I grow atrophied in voice from my prolonged silence.”

  8 Yeshua was quiet then and spoke not a word but merely smiled in understanding at Miriam and nodded for her to continue.

  9 Still holding him gently about his waist and looking up into his eyes, Miriam began, “Everything you have shown unto me that I must do I understand.  And I shall faithfully fulfill all things as you have asked, as our Father and Mother give me strength.

  10 It is concerning the things that you shall do that I do not fully understand, and I desire most ardently to have my understanding complete before you do these things, lest I not be able to endure with the fortitude you ask of me.”

  11 Yeshua nodded again for her to continue.

  12 Miriam nodded, “You have said that soon you will allow yourself to be crucified and then resurrect and return to us for a time, before you ascend forever more up into the higher realms of Celestine Light.

  13 I understand the purpose for which you shall die and return to life, that the resurrection shall begin for all people, not just the select; that those spirits who have languished long in prison and paradise will finally be able to come forth into the fullness of resurrection to reap their reward or punishment as they merit.

  14 I understand that you who are most pure and need not suffer at all in repentance, will suffer in solitude the sins of the world the night before the journey to the cross begins; that all who repent of their darkness and live the Celestine Light you have brought into the world will not have to fully pay the penalty of their own sins, because you, their elder brother who loves them beyond measure will have suffered in their place.

  15 These are most noble and virtuous sacrifices you make for wanderers in darkness that know you not, and who almost without exception reject you when you are revealed to them.  Those who actually find and live the Celestine Light with a resonance in their soul are few indeed, so your suffering for the untold multitude, seems to me your loving wife, to be more than is needed.

  16 Yet, even with this, I do understand in my head why it is you must do that which you shall do.  It is just my heart that does protest.

  17 What I cannot yet comprehend is why it is that to do it you must be crucified, and why it must be so soon upon us.

  18 Can you not prove the resurrection of eternal life by something as simple as leaping off a high cliff and restoring your shattered dead body and broken bones for all to see?

  19 Why must you choose so ignoble a death as crucifixion? You are the only begotten son of our Father and Mother. You are a part of the Elohim and Lord over all the Earth. Why will you allow common lowly men to lay hands upon you and humiliate you and scorn you and laugh at your suffering?

  20 And even to accept this horrible way to die, why must it be so soon, before our children are even grown? Could you not wait just a few more years that we may have you with us just a little time longer; that you can see our son married and give our daughters hand?

  21 Please do not think me selfish in asking these things, merely am I a wife who loves her husband beyond words to say, and would see him walk his path only in the nobility that is his birthright and continue with his family in the flesh until our children stand on their own.

  22 I do not ask for you to not walk upon your path. I know you must, and my love and unfailing support is ever with you. Merely I wish to fully understand the manner in which you have chosen to walk the end on this Earth, and the timing you have chosen to finish your journey in mortality.”

  23 Yeshua cupped his hands around Miriam's head and ran his fingers through the soft hair near her neck. He kissed her gently on the lips and put his arms around her and held her close, saying, “Blessed are you Miriam, and blessed am I to have you as my wife. Though by my word worlds begin, only our Father and Mother could have created a marvel such as you.

  24 Know that I will never leave you or our children and I will be there each and every important moment in their lives in a way that is as real and tangible as I stand before you now, and not merely in the spirit as the Apostles shall see me.

  25 After I have ascended to heaven, no others upon the Earth shall see me in the perfection of resurrection save you and the children of our union. You at all times when you so desire, for you will be the Angel of the Covenant.  With our children, whenever a time of significance is upon their lives and they so desire, I will manifest myself unto them.

  26 On those days, when our son is married and our daughters hand is to be given, I shall be there as you see me now and hear my voice. As so shall you see and hear, and so shall they see and hear, but no others except you.”

  27 Upon hearing his words Miriam was joyous and she embraced him with exuberance, “My heart is calmed with the balm of your words and my happiness knows no bounds. Can you now so fully assuage my concerns about your chosen path to part mortality?”

  28 Yeshua looked at Miriam and lifted his eyebrows hopefully even as he shook his head slightly in negation, and he said unto her, “The words you have spoken about crucifixion are true, but it is because they are true- that this is a most vicious and cruel way to take the life of a man, that it must be the way mine is taken.

  29 And more than this, they shall break my bones, rip my flesh, and run a spear through my side and into my heart. By this, which all the people of Jerusalem shall see, there will be no doubt that my mortal life has truly perished.

  30 But pity me not for the suffering you think you shall see. As you said, my suffering shall be in the long night before the journey to the cross begins. During the spectacle to the cross and upon it, rest assured I will feel no pain, nor be broken by the cruel words and actions of men, no matter the ravages you shall witness put upon my body.

  31 After three days in the Earth you must come for me.  I will wait for the presence of your exquisite love, which even death cannot stand against. Then shall I appear again before my Apostles and many people of the city. And they shall feel the prints of the nails in my hands and my feet, the scourges on my flesh, and the wound in my side, and they shall know that it is me, and that mortal death is not the end, but the beginning of life eternal.”

  32 Miriam nodded her head in understanding, but still questioned him further, saying, “Yet, will not people say that this is Yeshua, a man known for great miracles, and not understand that the resurrection will be also for them and all others?”

  33 He nodded his head and explained, “If I alone were to return in the glory of perfection, so might they doubt. But on the day that I rise, so shall many of the virtuous who have lain long in the grave, also rise and go about the city for a day.  And one other special resurrection shall occur that day.

  34 And it will come to pass by the word of the Father and Mother and by that which men have seen, that the understanding that life is eternal will be forever seared into the memory of man, beginning at this place.

  35 From one generation to the next, across all religions and cultures will wash the innate comprehension that mortal life is not the end, but the beginning of a greater eternity.

  36 This divine understanding will take many forms even as it now does among many: some will believe in a heaven of spirits, others of a continual reincarnation of the soul. Still others will believe in a paradise where they who were servants shall become kings, and others shall say to men that there is nothing beyond this life, even while the divine Celestine Light of their soul makes hollow the false conviction of their words.

  37 This undeniable whisper of eternal life will not be limited to the understanding of a few, but undeniably written upon the souls of every person. In many and diverse ways the truth of eternal life shall encompass the earth and the soul of everyone therein and every person to be born in every generation to come.

  38 And for every generation to come, this unfathomable understanding shall be the impetus to humble the proud and turn men from the darkness to the light, in hopes that their eternity might be greater than their mortality.

  39 Because all things must be weighed in the balance and tallied for their worth, I shall suffer some of their sins that they shall need not suffer them all; and shall give a sacred portion of the Celestine Light of my soul to take away a great part of the darkness from the souls of those who repent and live in my light, that they might have the purity needed on their day of judgment to enter into Celestial glory.

  40 And it shall come to pass that those that repent of their darkness and live in my light, shall inherit the eternal life of Celestial glory their soul forever whispered in sure knowledge upon their heart and mind.”

  41 Now Miriam buried her head upon his chest and cried many tears. When she had composed herself somewhat, she spoke softly unto him, saying, “Thank you my dear Yeshua. Thank you.”

  42 With Miriam's head still upon his chest Yeshua held her with one arm around her waist and stroked her long hair with the other, and said unto her, “When the time of your angelic calling is upon you in fullness, you shall have all the powers of heaven except the creation of life vested within you.

  43 Considering all that you could do, and the fiery temperament you have sometimes shown, you must make a promise to me.”

  44 “Anything,” she answered softly.

  45 “Promise me you will never take the life of any man, woman or child,” Yeshua asked.

  46 Miriam replied with conviction, saying, “Beloved, I promise you that when I am filled with the fullness of my calling and the powers of heaven given unto me to fulfill it, I will never intentionally take the life of any man, woman, child or creature upon the Earth.”

  47 Yeshua nodded in silence and still stroking Miriam's hair, he said unto her, “That is well my love, but you must promise that you shall never take a life, even unintentionally. For with such great power, comes even greater responsibility.”

  48 Miriam looked up at him then, saying, “I would promise that if I could, but as you say my temperament is sometimes fiery, and as happened that day on the River Qishon, the unintentional consequences of my righteous passion are not always favoring of life for the wicked.”

  49 Yeshua looked in her eyes and gently upbraided her, saying, “On that day on the River Qishon, you were merely Miriam; righteously angry and overly passionate because of a threat to one that you loved.

  50 But soon you will be more than Miriam the woman, you shall be an exalted representative of our divine Father and Mother.  And except for life protecting self-defense, which you shall never be in need of, they grant the right to take the life of man unto none, and expect those whom they have called to high and holy callings to serve them even unto perfection.”

  51 Miriam nodded her head in understanding and said unto him, “Your words are so true. I am humbled by their calling and shall trust their never failing light to ever guide me on the paths of righteousness and perfection within the responsibilities they have blessed upon me.”

  52 And it came to pass that on the following Sabbath, after the sunrise meeting of the Children of Light, Yeshua called his Apostles to come into the mountains with him and Miriam for three days and three nights.

  53 After spending the night with their families, all of the Apostles met at sunrise the next day at the house of Yeshua and went with him and Miriam up into the mountains.

  54 Though Salome asked to also go with them that she might be with Miriam, none save Miriam and the other eleven Apostles were allowed to go up onto the mountain with Yeshua.

  55 During their time upon the mountain Yeshua told them again of the things that would shortly come to pass, including his crucifixion and resurrection and why this needed to be, even as he had told Miriam. But most of the Apostles other than Yudas Iscariot, Mathew and Philip, had difficulty understanding the depth of the words he spoke.

  56 Seeing their confusion, Yeshua said unto them, “Marvel not at this, that I should resurrect from the dead and come again among you, even as you too shall resurrect and come again among your friends and loved ones in the Celestine realms.

  57 If the divine Father and Mother can breathe the breath of life into all men and creatures, think you not that they can just as easily give life back to those whom have died, and decree that the life given once more shall now be given unto perfection and perish never again?”

  58 Yeshua also spoke somewhat concerning the mysteries of Celestine Light and the powers therein that he had shared with Miriam. But only a portion of the secrets that he shared with Miriam did he share with the Apostles. In truth, only Miriam with her many years of experience and instruction by Yeshua could comprehend the vastness of all he could teach.

  59 One by one, Yeshua called forth the Apostles and laid his hands upon their heads and gave unto each of them a specific calling to fulfill from that day forth until their last day in mortality.

  60 He also gave unto each Apostle specific blessings, each according to their need and calling, and unto each he bestowed new gifts of power that they might better serve the Children of Light and support one another.

  61 Lastly, unto each, he gave a gemstone, beautiful and rare. To each was given a different stone. Unto Miriam who came to him last, he gave the largest and most beautiful of all. And they marveled at the gems and spoke quietly among themselves momentarily, wondering where he could have obtained such expensive stones.

  62 And he said unto them, “Each of you have been given a gemstone of power that is in harmony with your soul essence. As your heart beats and the Celestine Light of your soul expands upon a foundation of sure faith, love and knowledge, your gemstone will come alive and draw to you the powers of Celestine Light from near and far to aid you in your righteous purposes.

  63 Others may think that they have gemstones like unto yours and they will say unto men, See, I have the same gem as the Apostles of Yeshua, and I am as great as they, but it will be a foolish man who speaks these words, for their stones will be dead; nothing but pretty baubles for their vanity.

  64 Verily, only a gemstone given by those in authority and attuned to a single virtuous soul, can be used to call upon and command the powers of Celestine Light, and then only with faith, love and knowledge to fulfill a righteous purpose that serves Elohim.

  65 As I have given unto you, so may you give in like manner unto other Children of Light that are worthy and prepared to receive such a gift.”

  66 Yeshua then bade the Apostles to sit down.  Some sat upon the ground, others upon logs and some on rocks. And Yeshua sat before them upon a log, and spoke unto them again, saying, “After I have ascended into heaven Miriam will no longer be numbered among you as an Apostle, for she has been called to serve you as the Angel of the Covenant, known as Shalanawyn, after my ascension, and then for eleven years upon the Earth after I have departed.

  67 When this comes to pass you must quickly choose another to take her place as an Apostle among you that you will continue to be a Qrom of twelve. And this should be with the spirit of Elohim upon you. Therefore, your choice for a successor should be of one accord.”

  68 Now Yeshua said this in a quiet and simple manner as if Miriam becoming an angel was not something unusual. But one and all the Apostles looked at each other without comprehension, shaking their heads in confusion.

  69 And Cephas spoke for all of them, asking Yeshua, “What do you mean Miriam has been called to be the Angel of the Covenant? Who of us save your mother has ever even seen an angel? And then only in a vision while she slept.  How can a mortal be an angel and how can an angel stand among us as an ordinary person?"

  70 Hearing the questions of Cephas, which he had spoken with great seriousness and surprise, Yeshua laughed in a good-natured manner and said unto him, “As you all well know, even now, there is hardly anything ordinary about Miriam.

  71 Consider that I am among you, and have been since I was born of woman. If this can be so, then surely an angel may also be among you.”

  72 “But angels are not mortal,” Shim'on stated seeking clarity.

  73 “Nor shall Miriam be mortal when the time of her calling is upon her,” responded Yeshua.

  74 Miriam who was kneeling beside Yeshua, bowed her head deeply at his words, while the eyes of each of the Apostles opened wider in incredulity.

  75 “She shall die and return, even as you shall then?” questioned Yohannan.

  76 “No,” answered Yeshua. “She shall never feel death's sting, but shall be changed in the twinkling of an eye from mortality to immortality, yet have the special ability given only to angels, to be immortal yet able to remain in the mortal realms.”

  77 “This is more than my simple head can understand,” mumbled Yakov the brother of Yeshua. “If she does not die and return, but simply remains, how will we ever accept her as anyone other than the Miriam we have always known?

  78 And seeing her as she has always been, what will be different that we should think of her as an angel? And for what purpose would you anoint her such? And how are we expected to treat her when that time comes?

  79 She can already do things we cannot. Why is more required of her? Why not give more gifts to us who are also faithful and true? I am sure that each of us, one and all, will volunteer to become angels.”

  80 Yeshua spoke now in seriousness as he answered the questions of his brother, and he said unto him, “Her calling is not from me, but from our divine Mother and Father, who have always entrusted the Angel of the Covenant to uphold their promises to the Children of Light.

  81 He who now serves shall as the Angel of the Covenant will soon rise to a new glory and the angelic mantle shall be given to Miriam that she who knows you best, and all the Children of Light so well, may serve you to the fullest as no other can.

  82 When that day comes, you will understand without doubt that it is upon you, for Miriam will come with a different aura and appear in ways distinct and different than she now does.

  83 But see that you speak to no one about her angelic nature. Never call her by the title of her divine calling, Shalanawyn, save you are in certain privacy, or far from her and in great need of the messenger Elohim has given unto you that you might surely fulfill your destinies. Even then, call not upon Shalanawyn, but upon Elohim to send Shalanawyn unto you.

  84 Let all others, including the Children of Light, know her only as the Miriam they always have, lest they call upon her for blessings reserved only for the Elohim to give.”

  85 Philip next began to ask a question, but Yeshua cut him off, saying, “There is no need to speak more of this. You know that which shall come to pass. It is better that your questions are not answered with more words today, which can still be without comprehension, but instead, by that which you shall witness in the days to come, which shall be with an understanding that cannot be denied.”

  86 “This is somewhat depressing,” mumbled Yuda the son of Cleophas to everyone, but to no one in particular. “As I ponder all the things we have learned today about what will come to pass in the days near to come, and all we have previously learned concerning these days to be, it honestly seems far more dismal a future than should be put upon the Children of Light.

  87 Yeshua is going to leave us and Miriam is going to become even stranger than she already is.” Looking quickly to Miriam he added, “Please take no offense Miriam, for in truth, you are peculiar and not as other women.”

  88 He then continued, saying, “We will be persecuted and have to abandon our homes and communities. Some of us may be killed and life will surely be unpleasant; perhaps even miserable for everyone.

  89 While few people will listen and follow the true Celestine Light of Elohim that we teach, many will come to follow a perversion of the light taught by others. Meanwhile our numbers will dwindle when the times become too difficult for some.

  90 Our prayers of salvation to Elohim to lift us up from the trials will go unanswered so we can instead learn to rely on the gifts of the spirit within us. If we are not successful in manifesting the gifts we have been given, then the painful, perhaps fatal, consequences are upon us.

  91 I do not mean to sound disrespectful to the divine Father and Mother, to Yeshua, Miriam, or any of you my brethren. But if this seems almost overwhelming to me, a man that has been called an Apostle and given secret knowledge.  How will the Children of Light not so aware as I am be able to keep the faith?

  92 There, I think I have spoken all of my thoughts,” he concluded. Looking around at the others he asked, “Did I forget anything?”

  93 “More of us will probably be killed than you allotted,” Cephas replied with straight-faced humor.

  94 “Very funny Cephas!” laughed Yuda, and everyone laughed with him.

  95 Now all eyes looked to Yeshua to hear the answer he would give to Yuda.

  96 “All you have spoken is true Yuda,” Yeshua began. “But it does not have to be true.

  97 Within each of you is a piece of divinity; a piece of our divine Father and Mother who created your soul and breathed the breath of life into your body. This spark can help you live in a different world, even while you still walk in this one, if you connect to your divinity with absolute faith.

  98 Even among you my closest friends and Apostles, it is easier to get caught up in the ways of the world, and the reality that has been accepted by all the people of the world, than it is to have absolute faith in something quite different.

  99 You have witnessed as have many others that if a man is shot through the heart with an arrow he quickly dies.

  100 The man so shot also believes he must die if he is shot through the heart and so he does.

  101 Someday perhaps some of you shall be shot through the heart with an arrow, or run through with a spear, or felled with the lead of a sling, or worse.

  102 Upon that day where will your absolute faith be? Will you believe that you shall die? If so, surely you shall.

  103 Will you have absolute faith that if some of your brethren come quickly to give you a blessing that you will live? If so, that will be.

  104 But can you believe in yourself? That you are in fact a divine child of spirit of our Heavenly Father and Mother, and that there is nothing impossible to you if you connect in total faith to your divinity.

  105 Can you have unwavering faith that the sliver of divinity in your soul is enough to conquer death, to forget the structures of belief created by the world and instead embrace a oneness with our divine Father and Mother, through whom all things are possible? If so, like Miriam, never will you taste deaths sting.

  106 Finding that state of understanding and faith is to conquer the mountain of your purpose in life. It is the greatest choice of all, but few will find the faith to go there, and must therefore suffer the blessings or consequences of the reality in which they have the greatest belief.

  107 Understand too that Elohim has put a special blessing upon you and all of the Children of Light of the communities of Gennesaret. You will always be challenged in diverse ways, that you may grow and become more than you are by overcoming your challenges, even as Yuda said.

  108 But you will never need to suffer as greatly as the world will wish.” He then reached down and touched the head of Miriam who still knelt beside him. “In me you have heard the gentle voice of the Celestine Light and seen the love that may heal all afflictions.

  109 You are a chosen people reserved in heaven to come forth at this time for great purposes of Elohim. Think you that you would be abandoned to muddle through the world as unprotected babes?

  110 Even as I came to be the voice and the love of the Celestine Light, and to bring eternal life to man, when I am upon this Earth no more, you will have a shield greater than me in Miriam.

  111 Because I am the creator and love all my creations, only my gentle heart goes unto them. Though the wicked grieve me greatly, I wait for the Day of the Judgment of Resonance for them to be called by their own soul to the house of their compatibility, be it darkness or light, bliss or despair.

  112 Miriam has no such onus, and a far more fiery temperament as well. When she is filled with her calling, the powers of Elohim will be upon her that she may faithfully serve our divine Father and Mother.

  113 And they have asked that to serve them, she serve you and the Children of Light: not to take life, for that is forbidden to her, but to do all else to insure that the covenants the divine Father and Mother have made to the Children of Light are fulfilled.

  114 I am the voice and the light. She shall be the whirlwind and the majesty of Elohim made manifest.

  115 And you, each of my dear friends, have no less a destiny. As you gain greater knowledge and faith, even as has Miriam who has walked each day with me for fifteen years, so shall you be called to your glory in the service of Elohim.

  116 So shall every Child of Light who endures until the end, with head unbowed to man, and faith in Elohim unshaken and true.”